This blog post is linked very closely to my previous one on “Self-sabotage” but hopefully extends on this concept so that you take away something new. A part of self-sabotage is pushing away people that genuinely love and care about you. This might not be a person you see as a potential love interest but even just a friend or family member. This person might have genuine feelings of love and compassion toward you and yet, in the depressed state you find yourself in, you are either unwilling or unable to accept their light into your life. It is kind of like you have had the light off for some time and then someone has suddenly turned it on and it blinds you. It’s too much for you! The positivity they emanate can be too much for your perpetual darkness. But that darkness doesn’t have to exist forever…
So what can you do to overcome this, you ask? A major issue here is insecurity! You feel inferior to this person because they possess something or some things you do not. This isn’t necessarily a physical thing but even just a mental gift that they have which you lack. In fact you might seem like the more successful person than them when it comes to material things like housing or a job. They may also tell you what you need to hear as opposed to what you want to hear. They love you as you are yet they are not going to lie to you and tell you that you are perfect. They would love to see you change your life for the better and this is the core issue. Whilst their love might be unconditional their hope that you change is never ending too and for you change is HARD. You want to avoid this person so you can put off changing and growing. You don’t want to let them down. This is why you push them away.
Do not feel inferior to this person. You are not and if they thought you were then they wouldn’t even spend the time looking out for you. View yourself on an even playing field as this other person who cares for you. Secondly, be grateful that this person wants you in their life irrespective of whether you change or not. There is literally no pressure on you to do anything at all so be thankful for that. You’ve got all the time in the world to grow when someone unconditional is lifting you up and supporting you. Third – when you are ready face your demons. Try doing life differently – not for this other person but for yourself! The other person is going to be there for you whether you do it or not, whether you fly or fall…
Anyway this blog post is way too emotional for me to write so I am going to have to wrap it up now. I just have to implore you all not to push away love in your life, not in any form. Love doesn’t just mean romance and flowers and whatever. Love is so much more than that and could honestly fill your soul with so much more than you currently have. Never say no to love. Love is literally everything in this world and what makes this world turn. We would be nothing and nowhere without it.
Ok so I’m a bit of a wreck now and best head home.
Thanks for reading this or listening to this blog post.
I love you all endlessly!